While I try to focus on the positive and not the negative, the negative seems to appear more quickly. For example, in class tonight, my facilitator pulled up some quotes from famous people. The one he pointed out and seemed to hit me like a ton of bricks was "A leader is a dealer in hope."-Napoleon Bonaparte.
He continued to go on and say that if your not passionate about something or if it doesn't make you happy, or not happy in life, find what your not happy with and let it go. If it seems like you keep hitting a brick wall, turn around and find a way around it.
DISCLAIMER: I am not looking for any male bashing. There is alot more going on than what I am stating here. I am stating what is on my mind and how I feel after a long day of work and school and not getting to see my kids any today because of the 2.
Unfortuately, I started thinking about bad things. We are trying to get a mortgage for our house and land we are living on and that is not working out how we want it too. We are throwing our money away while we rent this place. Another thing is what I am putting foreward in my marrage and what my hubby is putting forward and it seems like i am getting the short end of the deal. I work 9 to 10 hour days 5 or 6 days a week and come home to do the cooking, cleaning, laundry, etc. The hubby is a stay at home dad for a 2 1/2 year old and a 3 month old. I know when I have days off and I let him sleep in to get a break from the kids, I can manage to clean house and do laundry or dishes or something productive.
I love my husband but it is getting to be too much stress. Between money issues, hubby wanting work but not motivated enough to work around the house, I'm not making enough money for the mortgage we want. I am about ready to call it quits on the marrage and the house. Main reason I will stay is for the kids. It is definatly not the hubby right now.
I am not a quiter but it is getting rough and I don't know how to stop it. Thanks for listening.
